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For the past two days, including today, I have been changing my mood from happy to sad! Don't know why!! I think its because when my poly friends were talking about their relationship, I felt jealous and I felt that I am hopeless because whenever I like someone, the particular person will like ignore me and even reject me, which also brings back the memories that I had during secondary school when they were talking about that!! Its not that I don't allow you guys to talk about your relationship, I just feel that I am hopeless, as in no hope for girls to like me!!! *Sighs* I thought like after composing every drum solos I made, I will feel better as I still have my feelings for music, but it seems to bring back sad memories when I hear some music from the certain band I always hear!! The truth is that currently, like a month or a week or so, I think I fell for someone but I don't dare to tell her or show that I like her as I am afraid that she might ignore me and make my emotions from bad to worse!! To my poly friends, Sorry guys that I sometimes show you guys my "emo" side!!! I just can't help myself from not controlling it!! But you guys still can talk about it!! I am fine with that!! Don't need to feel bad for me!! I will be fine after a few laughter which you guys will always do!!!
P.S.To my poly friends and my JVCB friends, If you want to know is that person is, you guys can ask me, but I may or may not tell you!!! Because I want to keep it confidential!!
Monday, April 27, 2009
MAN!!! Life in Poly is so tiring!!! And on top of that, the weather is killing me!! SUPER DAMN HOT!!! The only time I felt cold is yesterday as at my uncle's place, the area is raining heavy for like 2 to 3 hours!!! Okay!! Its been a long time that I last post! On my first day of school was kinda boring as I went to the CCA Fiesta in Ngee Ann Poly and was alone from 10 to 12pm! At the convention centre, I registered with NPCB(Ngee Ann Concert Band), SCC(Song Composing Club), Canoeing, Brazilian Percussion Ensemble, which I forgotten how to spell the name, and Christian Club as I was being asked to join. When I wanted to go out of the convention centre, saw Wen Xing and he asked me to accompany him to look around the CCAs. After that, we went for a drink before I start lesson at 1pm.
Second day, was the same as on the first day but slightly better as I notice that Liyana is in the same Lecture Group with me and I got to make friends with her friends. Third day, was the best!! as I made a bunch of new friends as they are from the same Practical and Tutorial Group as me!!! Whenever there is a break, all of us will hang out together and go to the next lessons together!! We are so unite!!! *WOOHOOO* Forth day, was the same as third day and nothing much other than the Song Composing Club Induction. So after our day of lesson, Kang Meng and I went to SCC for the interview and etc. During the interview, the SCC members asked a few of us a few questions each like what we are interested in and etc. Kang Meng is singing and they asked him for a short presentation and he sounded...not bad. While as for me, I just showed my drum warm-up routine as I don't really show off my full talent yet unless I am close with the people around me!!! After the interview, the both of us went back home. Fifth day, was the same as the third and the fourth day!! Nothing much to say about it!!! On Saturday, went to the Concert Band "Tune-in" Programme and I didn't expect it that it was so fun!! The Games they organised were fun and we played a few pieces together!!! But I was shocked when they announced that a performance will be coming up soon!!! The reason is that, I will be having a performance with SWSY as a guest player for the time-being on the 27th of June and on the 4th of July!! Damn busy man!!! And yeah, to JVCB, do come on the 27th of June to support me!!! HEHEHE!!! Venue and time will be informed sooner or later!!!
Man!!! My schedule for the week will be damn packed as Wednesday, I will be having Song Composing Club from 6pm to 9plus, Thursday, I will be having NPCB practice from 6.30pm to 9.30pm, Saturday, I will be having NPCB from 2pm to 5pm, and lastly, Sunday, I will be having SWSY practice from 11am to 2pm!!! MAN!!! SUPER BUSY!!! Furthermore, projects are given out!!! ARGHHH!!! Hope I can manage them!!! And yeah...I am still composing my third drum solo!!! ARGHHH!!! Will be done in a few months time!! Since I am busy!!! And I am glad to have such great friends!!! That's why Glenn equals to GLAD!!! HAHAHAHA!!! This is a inside joke to those who are in the same Practical and Tutorial Group!!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I really want to go back to 2008!! I really miss my Secondary School life!!! I don't want it to go away!!! I miss all my friends who are always there for me!! I don't want to go to the course that I am appointed to!! I am worried that I can't do well to change the course I want after my first year as whenever I want to go somewhere, I can't get in!!! ARGHHH!!! I really hope I can change!!! And I got to know that I won't be in the same class as my 2008 classmate!!
I am scared that I am being influence by bad company as when I went for the orientation on the 13th of April, I saw most of the students are wild and won't have the heart to learn and study from the way I see them!!! ARGHHHH!!! I WANT TO CHANGE AFTER MY FIRST YEAR!!! AND I HOPE I REALLY CAN!!! Can I get this chance please!!! For the sake of my future!!!
I am stress for my first day as I really don't know whether to attend for practical class as on my time-table, it stated that I only attend only on even weeks and I am a person who doesn't like to miss lessons!!! If I do, I will hate myself for doing that!!! *STRESS!!! STRESS!!! STRESS!!!* I want to study hard so that I can change!!!
Last night, when I am off to bed, I can't sleep as I am feeling worried, scared and stress about my Poly life!!! After watching some television around 1am, I really went off to bed!!! MAN!!! The stressfulness, worriedness and the fear is worse than taking my O levels results and doing my O levels!!! And the feeling that I had last night, almost made me wanted to tear!!! I really really really need guidance and support from the new people around me and also my dad's friend's son as I was told that he was asked whether he wanted to change course, but instead, he don't want and he wish to stay in Nursing!!!
Man!! Hope my poly life will go through smoothly!!!! *Staring nothing but the open air*
I really need someone to talk to and borrow his/her shoulder to lean on right now!!
Friday, April 10, 2009
Yesterday was the best day ever had in my entire life!! I was flying high in the heavens!!! "Happy Happy Happy"!!!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Hey JVCBians!!!
If you guys still can't get over what happen!! Stay at my blog for a few minutes and hear this song!! It will make you feel calm and relax!! Just close your eyes and don't think of anything else but the music!!! It works!!! After hearing it, if you guys want the song, you guys can ask me for it!! Try hearing it a few times, as many as possible!!! It helps you feel calm and relax!!! Just one thing, close your eyes and think about the music!!!!
TRY IT!! :D
Saturday, April 4, 2009
HEY JVCBians!!!
Do cheer up!!! Its nothing wrong getting a silver!!! At least you all maintain!!! What if, example, this year you guys get a gold, two years later, the juniors get a silver, how do you feel? I am not looking down on them, just giving an example, all your effort of getting a gold is a waste!! Am I right? So look on the bright side, at least you all maintain, you guys earn another award as well! And I agree that you all should get a gold, but what is been done has been done, life must go on!! So Cheer up you guys!! You guys are our Gold in us alumni, teachers and conductors!!! Stay Strong!!! Smile everyone!!!
And Do SUPPORT ME!! Because Mr Rashul had asked me to join Singapore Wind Youth Orchestra!!! I need all my JVCBians to support me!!!