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For the past two days, including today, I have been changing my mood from happy to sad! Don't know why!! I think its because when my poly friends were talking about their relationship, I felt jealous and I felt that I am hopeless because whenever I like someone, the particular person will like ignore me and even reject me, which also brings back the memories that I had during secondary school when they were talking about that!! Its not that I don't allow you guys to talk about your relationship, I just feel that I am hopeless, as in no hope for girls to like me!!! *Sighs* I thought like after composing every drum solos I made, I will feel better as I still have my feelings for music, but it seems to bring back sad memories when I hear some music from the certain band I always hear!! The truth is that currently, like a month or a week or so, I think I fell for someone but I don't dare to tell her or show that I like her as I am afraid that she might ignore me and make my emotions from bad to worse!! To my poly friends, Sorry guys that I sometimes show you guys my "emo" side!!! I just can't help myself from not controlling it!! But you guys still can talk about it!! I am fine with that!! Don't need to feel bad for me!! I will be fine after a few laughter which you guys will always do!!!
P.S.To my poly friends and my JVCB friends, If you want to know is that person is, you guys can ask me, but I may or may not tell you!!! Because I want to keep it confidential!!